December 2011
Working on booking shoots again.
Hopefully I can quit being a pussy and get back into the swing of things- I mean it isn’t like it’s something I’ve never done before. My nerves always seem to get the best of me. I’ve got to get a nice portfolio together, though. I risk not getting gigs if I don’t. Speaking of which„ the commercial I’m in airs mid-January, and I just applied to be a...
Wayne sounds like a pouty four year old in his...
I can’t listen to it without envisioning him with clenched fists and his lower lip all pursed out with a scrunched up face expressing his frumpy dissatisfaction; Lol. Obligatory foot stomp and eventual crossed arms. included ‘Full on troll-tantrum!
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It is stupid amazing what a simple pill can do for...
Which pill? Adderrall, of course. I lack insurance now; Though when I was too naive to understand how necessary it was for me, I removed myself from my medication when I was much younger [refusing to take it] due to being teased and and being called ‘crazy’ every time I had to go to the nurse to take my medication in grade school. That was the biggest mistake I made in my life. My...
I just realized I have a tendency to shower people...
Items provide a place holder for genuine emotion. ‘Hey, you’re cool, take this thing. This thing is yours. This means you’re uh, cool, yeah. And you mean stuff to me and stuff. Yeah. Here. Have this. Like this. Like me. You like me, right? I hope you like me.’. I’m so unevolved.
For the first time in six years I feel free.
I don’t feel like I’m in a cage any more. I don’t feel trapped any more. And I never knew it was as easy as just talking about it. I always avoided it and was just so, so angry, and so hateful. But I’m not controlled or trapped any more. And it feels just indescribably incredible.
For the first time since it happened, I discussed...
And I’m beginning to understand the fact it wasn’t my fault, anything I could have done differently but didn’t does not matter, and that I was just a kid. I’m beginning to understand that I’m okay. It happened on my birthday- Today, around this time, and the week before. Every birthday up until this one I have spent hating myself, wanting to die, and being more...
why are you all alive?
what keeps you going?
i dont want to be alive any more.
and i dont understand how to feel any other way or what reasons i have to change my mind.
i just dont.
i genuinely dont understand why anyone would ever...
i just dont.
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'What the hell could you have done that was so bad...
‘Well, for starters, I was born.’
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I think I'm going to paste every suicide note I've...
Because there are about three hundred thousand of those fucks running around.
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Him: I had a dream you shot yourself in the head and died last night.
Myself: Lololololololol
